Catching stars

14 months - yes 14, because the day we made it official was 8 months ago but not the first day we were together. It took us a little too long to make it known eh? We are already past our first year of being a couple and even playing with how you say it it feels like it's been longer. It feels like it's been forever.

I wish I could remember every second I have spent with you in perfect clarity. No matter what's happening, you are there, so it's worth remembering. Even the hard parts. The scary parts. The parts that make me want to run away with you and never look back because the world isn't worth facing. I don't remember every moment, no matter how much I want to. I do remember the important ones though. I remember when I first heard your voice, it was like I'd come home. You wouldn't talk much but I knew I'd do everything to make you talk more because I needed to hear it. And you did, and then there were hours of calls and video chats. Days spent as together as we could be. I remember the moment I added up the money we'd made to get my plane ticket to see you and saw we had reached our goal. I remember crying- you were so upset that I cried because even if they were good tears, they were still tears. I remember seeing you in the air port-not running to you though, because life was in slow motion for me, but apparently I did. I remember trying to sleep in separate beds but even the distance between our beds far enough to break my heart. I remember being so close to you, expecting you to kiss me, but you didn't-you thought I might get upset, and I remember getting impatient in less than a week and kissing you myself even though I never thought I could.I remember the walks, drawing in the park, going to the store, the lake, the aquarium. I remember playing video games in your arms- and mostly just watching you play cuz I suck. I remember so many moments like that.

And I remember you, the way you smell, the way your body feels against mine when you hold me, and your lips against mine when you kiss me. I remember the way you pet my hair-but only when I look relaxed, and only for a few moments. The way your hand feels in mine, and the way you pull me close and walk with your arm around my shoulders, and I'd hook my thumb in your belt loop so my arm had somewhere to go- it made walking a little awkward but it was worth it because I could be closer to you. I remember you resting your head in my lap while we'd sit on the floor in the kitchen while food cooked because we couldn't let the bread burn, and I'd pet your hair while we sat there cuz it made you happy, so it made me happy. With other I don't remember those kinds of things, what they sound like or feel like or even look like. Only with you, and I remember them well enough to dream about them, to feel you with me and not know I'm asleep. I always know when I'm dreaming, I have to make people up because I simply can't remember what people look like. You're the only one there who's real, and you're so real I can touch you. I can't wait to be able to hold you in my arms again. The distance now will only make our time together more precious.

We have been through more than many people have, and we're stronger for it. And we will continue to grow stronger. Many couples would have broken after what we have been through and are going through, but it only makes us stronger, more sure, and more determined. That's why I know you are the one. That's why I don't doubt for a second that I will soon have you back in my arms. And that's why I'll work my tail off to make it happen. I miss you more than the world, and I will do everything in my power to bring you home, to show you a life you've never had but deserve more than anyone. You are an incredible person who deserves nothing but the best, and I'll make sure you have it. I just need to bring you home, and that's what I'll do. I love you Jasper, and that will never change, not for a moment.


Okay so I'm scheduling this to upload at midnight. IDK if you will see it before or after I wake up cuz I'm not sure if your comp hours will be changed tomorrow or the next day. That doesn't matter though, you'll see it and I'll get to talk to you and that's what matters <3

So I was having a lot of trouble coming up with an idea of something to draw, thought of this as I fell asleep one night having given up and coloring a lineart Jazz id like a month or 2 ago. I never thought I would be lucky enough to have someone so loyal and kind in my life, let alone to be yours and call you mine. I love you jazz more than the world.

Idk if they're fairies from Zelda or fireflies or what, doesn't matter though I think they're cute X3